| Excerpt
from Last Breath copyright (c) 2001 by
the author. All rights reserved. Prologue
C.J.
Osborn was ten years old when the boogeyman came
for her.
Some
months earlier she had decided she was old enough
to be left without a baby-sitter. A baby-sitter
was for babies, by definition, and she was no
baby. She rode horses - well, ponies - and
climbed steep trails in the Big Maria Mountains
and explored the shadowed canyons near her home.
She shot rifles and pitched horseshoes. She was
too much of a tomboy to be satisfied with her
given name, Caitlin Jean, and so she had become
C.J., a name that suited her better. Certainly at
the advanced age of ten, she could be left alone
for an evening, even if home was a ranch house in
a remote outpost of the Mojave Desert, and the
nearest neighbors were a half mile away.
"If
there's any problem," C.J. explained to her
mom and dad in her calmest, most adult tone of
voice, "I can call you. Or the Gregsons. Or
the police. I know what to do."
Despite
her arguments, for the first half of 1985 her
parents continued to hire Liddie Wilcox to sit
for them when they went out, even though Liddie,
presently sixteen, had begun baby-sitting at the
age of twelve, only two years older than C.J. was
now.
Finally,
in August, after months of sustained prodding on
C.J.'s part, her parents relented. They were
attending a birthday party at a restaurant in
Blythe, the nearest big town, twenty miles down
Midland Road. They would not call Liddie.
"You'll be on your own," C.J.'s dad
warned. "You sure about this?"
"I'm
sure," C.J. said with no trace of doubt.
What was there to be worried about? What could
possibly go wrong?
Before
leaving, her parents gave her the phone number of
the restaurant, and the numbers of the half dozen
neighbors within a two-mile radius, and the
number of the sheriff's department, and a great
deal of advice, which she only pretended to
listen to.
Then
they were gone, the old Chevy pickup rattling
down the dirt road into the smoldering sunset.
C.J. waved to them until they were out of sight.
Then she was alone, really and truly alone, and
she hugged herself for joy. She was a grown-up
now.
Inside
the house, she locked all the doors and windows,
as her parents had instructed; the swamp cooler
in the attic was sufficient to cool the place.
She could hear it thrumming through the ceiling
as she made dinner. Her mom had left a complete
meal in the fridge - chicken, peas, and mashed
potatoes, arranged in a tray like a TV dinner.
All she had to do was heat it up. Not much of a
challenge, but she felt a thrill of
accomplishment when the meal was ready. "I
did it myself," she said smugly, almost
persuaded that she had prepared the dinner from
scratch.
She
carried her food into the den and watched TV
while she ate, a custom ordinarily forbidden in
the Osborn household. But, as she reminded
herself, she was the head of the household for
the moment. She could do what she liked.
By
nine o'clock she was beginning to get sleepy.
Excitement had given way to drowsy boredom. She
lazed in an armchair in front of the TV,
congratulating herself on having taken her first
step into adulthood.
That
was when she saw the light.
A
dim glow wavered outside the window of the den,
not close, maybe twenty yards away or even
farther, shimmering like a will o' the wisp. She
watched until it vanished beyond the window
frame.
A
first prickle of fear worked its way through her
belly and up her spine. What she had seen was the
beam of a flashlight. At least she was pretty
sure it was.
There
was no reason for anybody to be prowling the
grounds of the ranch with a flashlight. And
prowling was the right word.
Prowlers
were burglars - or worse.
She
almost ran to the nearest phone. But she couldn't
be absolutely sure of what she'd seen. It might
have been some trick of light - the high beams of
a car on the power line road, maybe, or the
reflection of a shooting star. Or maybe the
product of her overworked imagination. People
were always telling her that she fantasized too
much.
Still,
she took the precaution of rechecking every door
and window to be certain every latch and dead
bolt was secure. She turned on all the lights in
the house. Darkness, she felt, was her enemy.
Finishing
her rounds, she stopped in the kitchen to turn on
the overhead light and to take a long, sharp
knife out of the cutlery drawer.
The
knife was not much protection, but if somebody
was out there ...
She
turned off the TV and the swamp cooler. She
wanted no extraneous sounds to distract her.
In
perfect silence she sat on the sofa in the living
room and listened.
Was
someone out there? A drug addict or some other
desperate person? She could picture him ¾ him,
yes, it had to be a man, women didn't prowl
around in shadows and scare little girls. He
would be shaggy-haired and beefy, and he would
smell of stale sweat, and his eyes would glitter
like small, polished stones.
There
were vagrants in Blythe, panhandlers and
shopping-cart people, who had that look. Maybe
this man was one of them. If there was a man. If
she hadn't imagined the whole thing.
She
comforted herself with the thought that there was
no way a prowler could enter the house without
being heard. To get in, he would have to force a
door or window. She would hear the splinter of
wood or the shatter of glass.
Unless
he could pick a lock. But she doubted he could
defeat any of the dead bolts on the exterior
doors.
She
ought to be safe. Anyway, there might not be
anyone outside at all. Already the glow she had
seen through the window was beginning to seem
like an image in a dream. Was it possible that
she really had dreamed it - that she had dozed
off and ...?
Wait.
A
noise.
The
creak of wood.
From
the rear of the house, where the laundry room
was.
There
was a door back there, but it was dead-bolted
like the others. He couldn't get in that way.
Could
he?
Another
creak. Closer than the last.
Footsteps.
That
was what she was hearing - soft footsteps on the
wooden floor of the hallway that led from the
laundry room to the back bedrooms.
He
was in the house.
It
was impossible - there had been no sound - but
somehow he had penetrated all her defenses, and
now he was coming, closing in on her.
Suddenly
the knife seemed like very poor protection,
pitifully inadequate to the threat she faced. She
needed help.
She
left the living room, the hasp of the knife
gripped in her shaking hand, and entered the
kitchen. The phone sat on the counter, a black
rotary-dial model. She lifted the handset from
the cradle and dialed nine, then one -
She
stopped.
New
footsteps.
In
the living room.
He
had made it that far.
If
she said anything into the phone, he would hear
her, even if she whispered. He would hear her,
and she would never finish what she had to say.
Carefully,
making no noise, she hung up the phone.
He
was searching the house room by room. He would
look in the kitchen before long.
There
was no way out of the kitchen except through the
living room, and he was in there now.
Hide
somewhere. Under the table? No good - he would
see her easily. In the cabinet under the sink?
She looked inside, but the interior was crammed
with dustpans and sponges and cleansers. She
could never make enough room for herself.
She
remembered the crawl space.
It
ran underneath the house. Her dad had climbed
down there more than once to fix the plumbing.
The trapdoor that afforded access to it was in a
corner of the kitchen, recessed in the hardwood
floor.
She
crept to the trapdoor and pulled on the metal
ring embedded in the wood. The door was
surprisingly heavy, but fear gave her strength.
She lifted it, and miraculously the hinge,
recently oiled, made no sound.
There
was darkness below, and she had no flashlight or
matches, and no time to find any. She lowered
herself into the pit. Her Keds immediately
touched bottom. She set down the knife on a bed
of gravel, reached up, and eased the trapdoor
shut.
Safe.
Maybe.
She
waited, huddling in the dark. Her fingers groped
in the gravel until they found the wooden hasp of
the knife. She drew it close to her.
Through
the floor above her head, she could hear the
vibrations of his footsteps. He was close - not
in the kitchen but maybe in the den. He must have
seen her through the window, and even if he
hadn't, he would know someone was home. The TV
must be still warm, and the remains of her dinner
sat on a tray on the coffee table.
He
must be a burglar, but she had never heard of any
homes being burglarized here in Midland, a
hardscrabble town at the eastern edge of
California, near the Colorado River, a town of
ranchers and miners and people who wanted to be
left alone. Nobody out here was rich. There was
nothing to steal.
Then
why was he here? And why tonight of all nights -
the first night when she had ever been left
alone?
Was
he - the thought came to her like a sliver of a
nightmare, intruding on rationality - was he
after her?
Had
he deliberately waited until she was alone?
Waited for his chance to get her?
Crazy
idea, but she couldn't shake free of it. Fears
from earlier phases of her childhood returned to
her. The monster in the closet. The bear under
the bed. The boogeyman.
That
was what he was. The boogeyman, the terror of all
children.
And
now he was in the kitchen.
She
heard the tread of his steps moving closer to
where she lay, diminishing, approaching again. He
was circling the kitchen. He must suspect that
she had gone in there. But how could he know?
Maybe
he had searched every other room, and this was
the last place left. Or maybe he could smell her,
the way a bloodhound sniffs out its prey.
Stop
it. Stop thinking like that.
She
was safe. She had to be safe. He couldn't know
about the crawl space. He couldn't possibly find
her.
Nonetheless,
she wriggled a few feet away from the trapdoor
until she found a vertical plumbing pipe in the
darkness. It was thin and provided little cover,
but she dragged herself behind it anyway, the
knife still clutched in her hand.
The
footsteps drifted nearer.
Had
he seen the trapdoor? Had he guessed?
She
waited, breath suspended.
Then
- light.
A
faint but brightening fan of light from the
kitchen as the trapdoor was raised.
It
lifted noiselessly, as it had before. In the
sudden spill of light she looked around the crawl
space for another exit or a better hiding place.
There was nothing - only the gray spread of
gravel, confusions of plumbing pipes here and
there, the cobwebby subfloor that made a low roof
overhead, and patches of darkness in the far
corners.
If
she could reach one of those corners she might
kick through the latticework and escape outside.
It was worth a try.
She
started to crawl, and abruptly the light from the
open trapdoor dimmed as a human figure crouched
over the entryway.
She
froze. Any movement, and she would be visible to
him.
She
couldn't see him, only his shadow on the gravel
floor. He was squatting down, motionless.
Then
the shadow disappeared in a new blaze of light.
His flashlight had snapped on.
The
long, orange beam probed the crawl space,
tracking over the dirt and the plumbing pipes and
the whorls of spider webs. Dead insects littered
the dirt - husks of beetles, dried remnants of
houseflies. A few yards from her lay something
small and skeletal, which might have been a
long-dead mouse or pack rat.
The
beam played over one side of the crawl space,
then blurred in C.J.'s direction and finally
settled on her. She looked into the bright cone
of light with frightened, blinking eyes.
From
behind the light came a voice - a male voice in a
whispery falsetto, the most evil voice she had
ever heard.
"I
spy," he breathed, "with my little eye
..."
Laughter,
soft and mirthless, fading away.
The
flashlight wavered. There was movement. He was
shifting his position.
Climbing
down.
Down
into the crawl space with her, and when he did,
there would no place for her to go and no hope
and no chance.
Blind
terror drove her forward. She saw a slim,
trouser-clad leg swinging down, and she lashed
out at it with the knife.
He
was quick, almost quick enough to anticipate the
blow. The knife brushed his calf and tore the
trouser leg, and then he was out of reach,
squatting above her again.
She
retreated a couple feet and waited, the knife
held before her in both hands like a talisman.
Silence.
Stillness.
Broken
by his voice, breathless and mocking, still
raised in a falsetto whisper. "You're a
fighter, Caitlin."
He
knew her name.
"Who
are you?" she called out, fighting to keep
her voice steady.
No
answer.
"How
do you know me?"
No
answer.
"What
do you want?"
This
time, a reply. "I want you, Caitlin."
His
voice was not what she had expected. She'd
thought it would be husky, gravelly, a dark,
croaking voice, but instead it was soft and
almost soothing, seductive as a python's hiss.
"Want
me for what?" she asked.
Laughter.
"Leave
me alone!"
"Can't
do that, Caitlin. I've waited too long."
She
wanted to ask what he meant, but the words
wouldn't come. He explained anyway.
"I've
been watching you. Biding my time. And now ...
tonight ... my long wait ends. Tonight, Caitlin.
Tonight."
He
had to be the boogeyman. Who else could he be?
The
knife shook in her hands, but she did not loosen
her grip.
In
movies, she had seen how a panther or a tiger
would coil up, then pounce. She knew he was doing
the same thing. Tensing his body for a new
attack.
It
came. This time it was his arm that was thrust
through the aperture, one gloved hand grabbing at
her, nearly seizing her by the wrists. She
twisted clear of his grasp and stabbed again,
missing, and the arm retreated up the hole.
She
edged sideways to a new position, then waited for
the next assault.
She
had seen little in the split second when he
snatched at her, but enough to know that his arm
was skinny and long. He wore a dark long-sleeved
shirt and a black glove. He was not the raggedy
man of her imagination. He was thin and sleek and
quick.
How
old was he? A teenager only a few years older
than herself, or an adult? She couldn't tell. His
whispery voice gave nothing away, and she
couldn't see his face.
She
hoped she never saw it. If she did, it would mean
that she had lost the battle.
"Why
me?" she called hoarsely.
"It
has to be somebody, Caitlin."
"Why
me?" she repeated.
"Because
you're so very pretty. Do you know how pretty you
are? Your hair is so smooth and shiny, chestnut
brown streaked with sun. I'd like to run my
fingers through your hair."
She
shuddered.
"I've
studied you," he went on. "In town ...
and here at the ranch. You fascinate me. You're a
very special little girl."
"Just
go away."
"I
wish I could. But then I'd never learn the answer
to the question that's been haunting me. What
color are your eyes, Caitlin? Are they brown or
blue? I've never gotten close enough to
see."
Her
eyes were green, but she didn't tell him. She
didn't want him to know anything about her ¾
even though he already seemed to know too much.
"I'll
bet they're pretty eyes," he said, and then
the gloved hand was upon her again, closing over
her right wrist and jerking it back, and she
dropped the knife. He grabbed for it, but she
snatched it first with her left hand and slashed
at him furiously, and she heard a hiss of pain.
He
retreated again. In the glow of the flashlight
she saw a thin red line painted on the knife
blade. She had nicked him in the hand or the
forearm. Hurt him.
She
had never intentionally hurt any living thing
before tonight, but now she wanted to maim and
cripple and mutilate. He had called her a
fighter. He was right.
"Bitch,"
the voice breathed.
Droplets
of blood pattered on the gravel.
"Go
away," C.J. whispered.
But
she knew he wouldn't.
She
steadied the knife. When he struck again, she
would be ready. She would hold him off all night
if she had to. She would never give up. Let him
try again and again to invade her hiding place.
She would inflict cut after cut until he either
gave up or died.
"I'm
going to kill you, Caitlin Jean Osborn," he
said in a deadly monotone. "And I'll do it
slowly. I'll make you pay -"
"Fuck
you," she snapped. It was the first time she
had ever said that word aloud.
She
waited for the next onslaught. Strangely she
wasn't scared anymore. Later there would be time
for fear, but now there was only the beat of her
heart and the feel of the knife and her total
concentration on survival.
Come
on, she thought. Try again. I'm not afraid of
you. Try again ...
The
flashlight disappeared.
For
a startled moment she thought he had switched it
off. Then she heard the creak of floorboards in
the kitchen, the tread of receding footsteps, and
she knew he had left.
Had
to be a trick. He was trying to fool her into
coming out.
Or
was he going to get a gun?
No,
couldn't be. If he had a gun, why wouldn't he
have brought it with him in the first place?
Well,
because he was crazy, of course.
If
he was planning to come back with a gun, then her
only chance was to get out now, while the kitchen
was clear. But suppose it was a trap, and she
climbed out only to be attacked ...
The
fear was back. When things had been clear, when
there had been only the simple job of fending him
off, she had forgotten how to be afraid. Now that
there was a decision to make, she was aware again
of her terror and confusion, and aware also that
she was only a ten-year-old girl, alone without a
sitter for the first time ever, and this was all
too much for her.
The
house was silent. Had he gone? Really gone?
Maybe
she could risk emerging. If she saw him waiting
for her, she might have time to get back into the
crawl space. She -
Footsteps
again.
Returning.
Too
late. He was back.
He
must have brought a gun, must have.
No
escape now. The knife was useless. She waited in
terror until his silhouette appeared above her,
his long, scrawny shadow stretched on the dirt
floor, and she looked up into his face.
Her
dad. Blinking down at her.
"C.J.?
C.J., what the hell ...?"
"Daddy,
is he gone, is he gone?"
"Is
who gone? Get out of there, it's filthy down
there!"
"Is
he gone?"
"There's
nobody here, C.J. Get out now."
By
the time she climbed up, her mom was there as
well, staring at her in bewildered concern.
"What in the world?" her mom kept
asking, over and over. "What in the
world?"
C.J.
told them what had happened. She told them about
the man who had come for her, who had gotten into
the house without making any noise, who had known
her name, who had said he'd been watching her.
"We have to call the sheriff," she
said. "Please, let's call now, before he
gets too far away!"
Her
parents made no effort to pick up the phone. They
merely traded a resigned glance.
"Come
on," C.J. insisted, "we have to
call!"
"C.J.,"
her dad said softly, "there was nobody here
tonight."
She
stood stunned, unable to register the fact that
they didn't believe her.
"You
got all worked up," her mom said in a
gentle, soothing tone. "Maybe it was
something you saw on TV. You know how that
imagination of yours can get going
sometimes."
"It
wasn't imagination," C.J. whispered. "I
cut him. Look."
She
showed them the knife, but the blood on the blade
had already dried to a thin dusky line like a
gravy stain.
"C.J.
..." her mom said, losing patience.
"There's
some of his blood on the floor of the crawl
space. You can see it!"
But
no blood was visible on the gravel. She must have
obliterated all traces when she climbed out.
Still,
she wouldn't give up. She made her parents
accompany her on a tour of the house. The man had
broken in. There would be signs of it. A forced
window, an open door ...
There
was nothing. Every door was locked, every window
sealed.
"Are
you willing to admit that it was your imagination
now?" her dad asked sternly.
"He
was real," C.J. said stubbornly. "He
was the boogeyman." Even as she said it, she
knew this was the wrong choice of words. Everyone
knew there was no such thing as the boogeyman.
Even she had known it until tonight.
Her
parents wouldn't listen. When she pressed the
point, they lost their patience. They sent her to
bed, telling her that she would not be left
without a sitter again.
The
sheriff's department was never called. After a
while C.J. stopped talking about the intruder.
Meekly she acknowledged that she must have
imagined him. It was the safest thing to say. But
it was a lie.
That
man was real. And he might still be out there.
Waiting, as he had said. Studying her. Biding his
time.
How
he had entered the house remained a mystery for a
month or so, until she remembered the doggy door.
The Osborns had no dog, but the ranch's previous
owners had kept two schnauzers and had built a
small swinging door at the rear of the house. It
had not been used in years, but when she tested
it, she found that the door still opened easily,
and the hinges made only a faint squeal,
inaudible at a distance.
The
opening was small, and she herself could barely
pass through it. But she recalled the man's long,
skinny arm. He had been bony, almost skeletal,
and somehow, by some incredible contortion of his
shoulders and hips, he had crawled through the
little door. And when he heard her parents
returning, he'd crawled out again.
She
knew this was so, because snagged on a splinter
of wood in the doggie door's frame were a few
black threads. She remembered the black trousers
he'd worn.
Of
course it proved nothing. There was no point in
even raising the issue with her mom and dad. They
would look at her strangely, and there might even
be talk of consulting with a psychologist in
Blythe, as there had been for a few days after
the attack.
She
didn't want to see a psychologist. She kept her
thoughts to herself.
But
from then on, whenever she played outdoors or
rode a pony in the desert or climbed a trail to a
high ridge, she kept watch for a tall, lean
figure in black.
The
boogeyman was out there.
And
someday, she knew, he would return.
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